I want to be born

I want to be born

I was in heaven with god

God showed me beautiful world

I felt like to go down to earth

After month I was in market with my mother

I got scared by the crowd

My mother bought my favorite fruit

In a moment crowd dispersed

Police came and started searching for bomb

I could have been killed

My mother saved my life

I was watching TV with my mother

News was scaring me

I felt suffocated

My mother switched off TV

My mother took care of me

She read me a newspaper

It was same news I was watching on TV

Momma stopped reading

She kissed me with her hand

In few minutes I fell asleep

Momma woke up so early so do I

She started cooking for dad

She fed me first

I feel she loves me more than anything

Dad was scolding her

I didn’t understand relation between them

Momma didn’t mind that

She protected me from all bad things

Mother’s friend came to see me

She told my mother to take care of me

Outside communal riots took place

I was so young to understand Hindu and Muslim

God taught me only about human

He didn’t mention cast, creed, and discrimination

When I was with God

He taught me about love, care and humanity

Earth was so different than god described it to me

How can he be wrong in what he created?

My mother loves me that’s all that matters to me

She loves reading and so me too

Whole nation would be waiting for newspaper

National budget is important for whole country

She was so much worried after reading

But she didn’t let me sense her worries

She was worried about my education

Schools and colleges are costly

Without money and education

Earth is no good place to live

But she held her strong

She promised me to give a good life

I was walking in the park with momma

Old aunty told momma to take care of me

Last month one baby was kidnapped

He was found physically abused and dead

I got very scared and told momma

I don’t want to come outside

Momma consoled me

I agreed with her

I just came out of trauma

Second day I heard about woman atrocity

People from the globe were concerned

She was raped and killed

After few days again the same news flashed

Rape was becoming fashion

I was crying inside

Momma was trying to calm me

I love when she caresses my hair

Accused often turns freeman

Girl was poor she was unable to fight

If you are true than too you have to buy justice

I don’t want to be born

I don’t want to see this world

God I don’t want to go on the earth

Your creation would be other world

This is not the world you told me

I am in womb and I saw all this

What if someday I will be a victim?

Will you come for my rescue?

If you come to rescue people

Why all those have faced death

Why they all are helpless

From last three months I have seen too much

Everywhere Corruption, Atrocity, Inhumanity

I will be with you only

God convince me to stay some more days

I agreed with him

My mother was reading Gandhi

I understood the power of common man

She read about Abraham Lincoln

I understood justice and equality

People who changed the world

Nelson Mandela, Martin Luther King

They influenced me to be born

You are very smart God

You are sending me to change the world

I am sorry I misunderstood you

I will change the world

And try to make it the way you have created

Momma has pain in stomach

She was worried about me

Dad took her to the hospital

Doctor checked and medicated her

She was feeling much better

I said sorry to my mother for hurting her

She said you are my life, you can never hurt me

Momma hugs me and we both fell asleep

Dad wanted to know my gender

Doctor denied revealing

Dad bribed doctor

Doctor said baby girl

I was so excited to be girl

Because beautiful creation of world

God made nothing as beautiful as woman

Thank you god

If I cannot be Gandhi or Lincoln

I will make my son Gandhi or Lincoln

I am woman

I can be Mother Teresa and Kiran Bedi

I suddenly heard some noise and woke up

Momma was on floor

Dad beat her

And I was the reason

I felt very bad, I am inside

I cannot help my mom

Momma told me that before you

Your dad killed two sisters of yours

Momma please don’t let me die this time

I want to be born

I want to change the world

God created many powerful women

And I am also one of them

I will never let you down

In the evening

Dad again shouted on her, beat her

My mother was so strong

But she collide with table

Dad doesn’t want me to be in the world

How should I tell to my dad?

I won’t be burden on him

I will help you in every way I can

Momma gets sick in the morning

She had to be admitted in the hospital

Dad talked to doctor

Momma was in sleep

She was taken in to operation theatre

I knew everything but unable to tell her

There were two nurses beside momma

I understood what they were trying to do

They wanted to kill me

I screamed Momma

I want to be born please

I was badly crying

Momma please wake up

They are going to kill me

I want to be born

I want to change the world

I want to give you good life

I will be good kid

I will be helpful domestically

I will be your baby boy in need

Please wake up and save my life

I want to be born

Momma they have broken my hand

It hurts too much

They broke my leg and it’s paining

They cut my head and put in the dish

Momma now I am no more in your womb

But I wanted to say

That I loved these three months

We spent whole time together

I wanted to be your daughter

But I don’t exist

They threw my body part in dustbin

I was scared of inhumanity

But I got courage to face it

I was not ready to go on the planet

But god convinced me

I cannot blame him

He sent me to change the world

But world doesn’t want change

They are used to insensivity crime

When they will need change

They will let me born

And believe me I want to be born